Tomorrow will make a whole MONTH of this new way of life, new way of eating! Wahoo! :-) I have made it through a month -nearly! And with full and COMPLETE JOY I am sharing with you all that I saw today on the scale that I have arrived at the 10 pounds lost mile stone!!! Woot! Woot! for me!!!! I hope that by this time next month I will see another 10 down -for a total of 20 down! But I know it will go slower and slower from here, but I have a goal of losing a total of at least 40 pounds, so I might still see such rapid results for another month, yet. I hope so. Getting on the scale and seeing so much progress each day has reallllllllly helped me get through!
Set Backs:
I had a major set-back last week, though. We went on a family vacation -we were gone for a total of 5 days and before I left I got down to 182.5 (9 lbs lost) and though I tried hard to stay on track, we ate out a lot and went camping for two days with family and with the shared meals I GAINED 4.5 lbs!!! I nearly cried when I saw the numbers on the scale late Wednesday night and yet again on Thursday morning. Stripped down, after using the restroom, I had gained between 4.5 and 5 pounds in just FIVE days...
I found it extremely hard to get fully back on track on Thursday morning. The old me came back to say, "Hey, this just isn't working! Can you see yourself dieting like this forever to only gain like crazy in just a few days of normal eating?! Face it, you're just destined to be a fat girl all your life!" But there was still some of the new me there to shut the old me up. I thought of this part of a video series I saw earlier this year (Believing God by Beth Moore) where she talked about giving up some gripping sin in her life. She described God saying something to the effect, "Beth, can you make it with me this morning?" She explained how some days were so hard and she just had to take it hour-by-hour with God to bring her through. And when she did mess up, God was right there to help her start anew.
So I saw some things I did wrong over our vacation that nearly sabotaged all my hard work! But I had only two choices: 1.) try again and keep at it and see some results -no matter how little or slow in coming; or 2.) just give up and learn how to just be fat for life. I chose to just focus on that morning, then that afternoon then that evening. Thinking beyond the next few hours was too much...
VICTORY:
IT WAS SO HARD TO DO! But now, I am so glad I did it!!!! Less than a week later I lost it all again plus another pound! Had I listened to the old me I'd have missed out so much!!! And I thank God, so very much, for helping me through the temptations to just give up! I know it doesn't matter to God if I look good in a pair of jeans, but I know that He loves me dearly and wants me to be healthy and to be free to enjoy Him fully. When I feel destined for obesity and forever feeling so awful about the body He gave me it is not honoring to Him and not helpful to anyone for anything!
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