Day One

Who knows where this journey will take me (and my family). Maybe it will take us to a better life with the same address as we currently have and I'll just have a few more gray hairs and wrinkles (I am 30 -the wrinkles and gray hairs are really just around the corner -no matter where I call "home"). And I am okay with that, just as long as the first part is true -a better life. But as I sit here in Bakersfield, California in my messy living room with lots of things on my current life's "things I hate about my life" list -on Sunday, August 16, 2009 -I am thinking I will be living in Hawaii soon (2-3 years from now) and living a much better life in a significantly much more beautiful place.

From the beginning I will be honest with myself and anyone else reading this, I want greatly! to live in Hawaii -but my deepest desire is to please the Lord with my life -NO MATTER WHERE I AM LIVING!

So one of my first steps is going to be deciding whether or not this Hawaiian desire is Godly. Is it my Heavenly Father giving me this desire?

Next will be to decide what to do with the answer. If it isn't God giving me this desire, should we still go for it? Maybe... I don't think it would be necessarily un-Godly if we moved to Hawaii if we didn't feel God called us to the islands... And maybe if it is God giving me the desire it isn't so that I would move to Hawaii -but just take steps toward something else he has planned for me. Any way this turns out I am excited to be taking this journey!

The ongoing step I am from this moment on choosing to take is to better my life. To better my marriage. To better my children's lives. To better my family life. To better my relationship with God. To better this world. I have this fantasy about my life in Hawaii -but the simple truth is that the woman who boards a plane headed for Hawaii will be the same one that gets out of the plane in Hawaii. I want to be a changing (for the better) woman when I board the plane. I must work on becoming the woman I want to be before I get there -not once I get there.

Now on to becoming that woman...